I cant believe it! We are now a family of 4! I'm finally getting around to writing about our sweet baby boy Sawyer!
I had been having contractions for weeks and my Dr kept telling me "any day now". I either wanted something to happen or just have the contractions stop. I was getting so exhausted. Finally last Friday my contractions started getting closer together and by 9pm they were close enough for me to go to the hospital. Josh kept trying to have me go to the hospital, but I kept refusing. I think I was pretty terrified to have a second baby and I thought "As long as I don't go to the hospital our lives won't be changed forever". I was just so scared to finally be having a second baby. Also, I was only 37 weeks and would have been ok holding off one more week for the babes health and so I could get through a hard week at school. We weren't able to sleep and as the night dragged on my contractions kept getting worse. Finally at 2:30am Josh called our friends Mike and Lacey and they came over to stay with Maddox. Once Mike was here I knew I couldn't stall any longer and Josh finally dragged me out the door to the hospital. As soon as we got there the nurse admitted me and the fun began. The night seemed to pass so quickly and time was nothing. Labor was going really well and I actually felt like I was rocking labor this time around. I guess having a baby only 11 months ago left me pretty prepared for labor this time around. I didn't sleep at all through the night so I was running on over 30 hours of no sleep by the time he was born. My labor slowed for a while but then once it picked up again it was only an hour before we were holding our baby. Sawyer Matthew Wray was born at 1:01 pm weighing exactly 7 pounds and measuring 19.5 inches. He is perfect in every single way. We spent an extra day in the hospital because they were worried about his breathing, especially where he was born a little bit pre-term. We had a few scary experiences with him not breathing, especially the first day. The first night after he was born he stayed in our room until 2am when the nurse came in and she ended up taking him down to the NICU for the night to be evaluated. But we had him back by the next morning and after one or two more quick trips to the NICU his Dr finally felt good about his breathing and we were able to go home!
We feel so blessed to have little Sawyer in our family. This pregnancy has been an emotional roller coaster. For the first two trimesters I only had a 50/50 chance of giving birth to him. We heard the words "miscarriage" and "stillborn" more times than we would like to recall. I was on strict bed rest for weeks. So many tears were shed and prayers were said and we now have a perfect son here safe and sound. I can honestly testify that prayer works. I know for a fact that this baby is only here because of all the prayers that were said for him and me, and Im so thankful for everyone that prayed for us and helped us in our times of need. Our ward has been amazing and has done a ton to help us, and my mom has been a heaven sent. She has completely dropped her schedule multiple times to come up here and take care of us, and she never complains. We couldn't be more thankful for all the amazing people in our lives.
As soon as they put this baby on my chest and he cried for the first time I knew he was a miracle and I felt beyond blessed to be able to carry him and be his momma.
I love this perfect little boy and me and Josh are so blessed to have two amazing sons. We are now, proudly, a family of four!
Friday, March 28, 2014
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
Day 11
I am officially on day #11 of the early stages of labor....and I am tired. I wish I could call these braxton hicks contractions, but unfortunately they are all to consistent and painful! I just wish they would either go away or do something. I don't feel like I can sit like this for another 3-4 weeks!
I felt like I was getting through the first week or so pretty sane, now i'm starting to lose it. After 10 nights of 3 hours of sleep (if i'm lucky) I feel like a complete mental patient. You could tell me something and 5 minutes later ask me what you just told me, and I probably wouldn't be able to recall one word you said. Multiple times will I be looking for something and getting so frustrated because I can't find it, and I was holding it the whole time. Small things like that every day add up and make me feel like i'm totally losing it. I feel completely exhausted 2 hours after I wake up in the morning and I could honestly probably take 4-5 naps a day at this point haha. I'm in so much pain and so stiff that doing things like picking up the house or vacuuming are major chores for me. It's horrible. I feel like a fat lazy whale these days.
FORTUNATELY my Dr has told me that i'm allowed to start walking again! Hallelujah! For the past 3 months I have been restricted from going on walks, walking around the track, etc. But now i'm back baby! This is the only thing I really enjoy doing these days. Some days I want to go walking at the track 2 or 3 times in the same day. It gives me some energy that I desperately need, it gets me out of the house which is a huge bonus! (being cooped up in the house during the winter = no bueno). Maddox LOVES to go walking and he smiles and yells at all the runners and old people passing us up (yes, with my pregnant lady waddle old people pass us up). But I just love that it makes me feel good, it's the only thing that gives me that boost right now. So every day me, Josh and Maddox all pile in the car and drive up to the school and walk till we can't walk no more!
I feel like labor is getting progressively worse, but idk if that's just because it's been so long it's starting to just feel worse, or if i'm progressing towards active labor. We will find out sooner or later I guess ;)
So with all of this i'm still trying to get things ready for the baby, but I have NO energy. Seriously, my house could use a good scrubbing, but by the time I fill up the bucket with soap and water, pull out the mop, and get ready to rumble i'm completely exhausted. I am seriously considering hiring someone to come over for like 2 hours this week and just scrub my house from top to bottom. I can't find the energy to do it ( I know i'm so lazy) and when I do go into labor I don't want people in and out of our house taking care of Maddox or picking stuff up for us and thinking "Holy cow! Ever heard of a Swiffer, lady?!"
I'll debate it for the next day or two and decide if it's worth it. If I do it, it will just have to be some cleaning service or some student cleaning houses to get through college, there's no way I could hire someone I know to come over. I would be mortified (Our house really isn't THAT bad, but having someone you know clean your house...wouldn't you be embarrassed too?!)
Have you ever hired a cleaning lady or cleaning service? Was it worth it? Any tips?
I felt like I was getting through the first week or so pretty sane, now i'm starting to lose it. After 10 nights of 3 hours of sleep (if i'm lucky) I feel like a complete mental patient. You could tell me something and 5 minutes later ask me what you just told me, and I probably wouldn't be able to recall one word you said. Multiple times will I be looking for something and getting so frustrated because I can't find it, and I was holding it the whole time. Small things like that every day add up and make me feel like i'm totally losing it. I feel completely exhausted 2 hours after I wake up in the morning and I could honestly probably take 4-5 naps a day at this point haha. I'm in so much pain and so stiff that doing things like picking up the house or vacuuming are major chores for me. It's horrible. I feel like a fat lazy whale these days.
FORTUNATELY my Dr has told me that i'm allowed to start walking again! Hallelujah! For the past 3 months I have been restricted from going on walks, walking around the track, etc. But now i'm back baby! This is the only thing I really enjoy doing these days. Some days I want to go walking at the track 2 or 3 times in the same day. It gives me some energy that I desperately need, it gets me out of the house which is a huge bonus! (being cooped up in the house during the winter = no bueno). Maddox LOVES to go walking and he smiles and yells at all the runners and old people passing us up (yes, with my pregnant lady waddle old people pass us up). But I just love that it makes me feel good, it's the only thing that gives me that boost right now. So every day me, Josh and Maddox all pile in the car and drive up to the school and walk till we can't walk no more!
I feel like labor is getting progressively worse, but idk if that's just because it's been so long it's starting to just feel worse, or if i'm progressing towards active labor. We will find out sooner or later I guess ;)
So with all of this i'm still trying to get things ready for the baby, but I have NO energy. Seriously, my house could use a good scrubbing, but by the time I fill up the bucket with soap and water, pull out the mop, and get ready to rumble i'm completely exhausted. I am seriously considering hiring someone to come over for like 2 hours this week and just scrub my house from top to bottom. I can't find the energy to do it ( I know i'm so lazy) and when I do go into labor I don't want people in and out of our house taking care of Maddox or picking stuff up for us and thinking "Holy cow! Ever heard of a Swiffer, lady?!"
I'll debate it for the next day or two and decide if it's worth it. If I do it, it will just have to be some cleaning service or some student cleaning houses to get through college, there's no way I could hire someone I know to come over. I would be mortified (Our house really isn't THAT bad, but having someone you know clean your house...wouldn't you be embarrassed too?!)
Have you ever hired a cleaning lady or cleaning service? Was it worth it? Any tips?
Thursday, March 6, 2014
Feeling Lazy
April 8th was the due date we were given, however for the last 2 weeks specifically i've been feeling more and more miserable. The baby has dropped down making it hard to walk, lean over, or do much of anything without being in pain. I've also been having awesome contractions that have been making me progress towards labor. And finally today after seeing how strong my contractions were, how progressed I was, and especially that this has been consistent for almost 2 weeks now, my Dr told me he doesn't think we're going to make it 2 more weeks without a baby BUT if I did make it that far and was still contracting he would help things along. Basically he feels terrible i've been in the early stages of labor for 2 weeks and I think he'll feel even worse letting me sit in the early stages of labor for a month (I love that a Dr can see how strong your contractions are and realize you're not just whining and complaining about being pregnant...but that you're really in pain!) So now the stressing begins.
I feel like I have procrastinated in a way. I thought we would be having a baby in April, so I haven't stressed about getting things done. Now I feel like I don't have enough time and i'm not prepared. I'm sitting here staring at piles of laundry waiting to be folded, I still need to pull out newborn clothes and get those washed and put away, I need to read a million books about how to survive with 2 kids under the age of 1, and I haven't even thought about a hospital bag. So today I just feel overwhelmed. There's so much to do and I have a fear of not having things done if I go into labor....but thinking of everything I have to do makes me want to take a nap. If anyone would love to come do my laundry and read me parenting books, be my guest :)
I feel like I have procrastinated in a way. I thought we would be having a baby in April, so I haven't stressed about getting things done. Now I feel like I don't have enough time and i'm not prepared. I'm sitting here staring at piles of laundry waiting to be folded, I still need to pull out newborn clothes and get those washed and put away, I need to read a million books about how to survive with 2 kids under the age of 1, and I haven't even thought about a hospital bag. So today I just feel overwhelmed. There's so much to do and I have a fear of not having things done if I go into labor....but thinking of everything I have to do makes me want to take a nap. If anyone would love to come do my laundry and read me parenting books, be my guest :)
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